Word began circulating yesterday that Round Two notifications for the Disney Mom's Panel were arriving in inboxes. My heart started beating faster. I spent a couple of hours checking my email every five minutes until it became apparent that I was not moving on. Boo. Talk began circulating before I closed my computer down about how many had moved on. Everyone was in agreement that the number seemed low. Theories started to pop up.
You know how you feel like something is right? I'm talking about feeling way down deep in your bones that something is right for you. That is how I feel about Disney Mom's Panel. The funny thing is there were up to 20,000 other applicants who felt the same way. I am bummed today. I am a little sulky, no point in lying about it. However, I still trust the process. I would like to think that there is something wrong with the process and that's why I wasn't selected but my brain won't let me. My self esteem likes to revert to middle school and tell me I just wasn't good enough, but that isn't necessarily true either. The truth that I see is that Disney has had years of wonderful panels with incredible women(and men) and I have had the pleasure of getting to know several of them. Disney's process has and does work. I cannot wait to see who makes it onto the 2011 Mom's Panel, and I will be hoping to join them in 2012.
photo by Molly Gold
Dreaming of the 2012 Disney Mom's Panel